Hey baby girl *HUGS* Blah where do i start, Mommie and daddy had a scare last night , but we are OK and babys is FINE its such a kicker! We get our ultrasound Thursday PLEASE be there with us , I need to know your there! Im scares somethign will be wrong but i pray not and i PRAY they can tell us what it is! but im SO tired im gonna go lay down i will wrtie you later ok! I love you Morgan Love Mommie Daddy and Baby Bean
It Is Getting Cold Out / Diantha Hey there my beautiful love. I know you are staying warm on these cold snowy looking days. I miss you so much. There is never a day that goes by that I don't feel your presence. I love you baby. You mommie might get to find out if you are gonna have a little sister or brother on thursday. I hope it is a little sister that way it will be like you are here also. I know it sounds silly but it really does work that way, that is the way it happend when Kennedee went to play with the angles and then McKenna was born it is like she makes up for both of them and I know that you will always be here with us no matter what. And as for your cousin Wes and his little bundle of joy we still don't know what he/she is yet. I know you do, so maybe you could send us a little sign so we will know what to start buying for a boy or a girl. LOL Your mommie and Aunt Kellie and Sam decorated up your spot for Christmas really pretty. I am sure you love it. I think you were around here this morning blowing things up. We heard a loud pop and then all of a sudden little Wyatt's play phone started ringing, so I think you were playing around again this morning, huh? Anyways auntie needs to go take Tyler to see Santa Clause so he can tell him what he wants for Christmas. I love you baby girl and I will talk to you again real soon. Merry Christmas my love I love you and miss you so much.
AFP TEST RESULTS! / MOMMIE
MORGAN BABY! I just got GREAT news remeber last week I got that AFP test done.. well the nurse just called and the test came back NEGATIVE! thats AWESOME NEWS this means theres a VERY small chance of neuroloigal problems! Im SO happy ! thank you SO much Angel! I love you SO mucg you and your brother or sister both of you mean the world to me! I love both of you more than anything ! but Mommy is goign to go spread the news i just wanted you to know :D! I Love you Morgan LOVE MOMMY!
"BEFORE I WAS A MOM" / Mommie! Before I was a Mom
Before I was a Mom? I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
Before I was a Mom I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Spit on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests. Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small = could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.
bro/sis update / MOMMIE
Hey baby girl! Mommie went to the doctor today to check on Jelly Bean and he/she is doing GREAT the heart beat was 160 ( like yours) and they are cutting my same scar that you came from! Everything looks good he said that he think its will be healthy so Im happy about that! Im getting a Ultrasound done in 21 days ( kinda praying for another girl) but i will love to have a boy:D Im rally happy I hope your watching over me Im really scared! But thats all i can think of right now LOL . I love you baby!
Love: Mommy & jelly belly
BIG SISTER MORGANNNNNN / Kati Rounds (friend of mommys ) Morgan! Little lady bug sweety pie! YOUR GOING TO BE A BIG SIS! Im sure your mommy has told you a lot, but I came to ask you to watch out for your mommy and daddy and your little sib thats in mommys tummy! Watch out for them! Stay sweet!
" My Pretty Girl" / Uncle Johnny (UNCLE) Although is true she was only here a little while
Those ho knew her remember her with a smile.
Some call her Ladybug or Pretty Girl; Other say her name
She filled our hearts with Joy. we'll never be the same.
Ive learned in life things come and then they go
But one thing thats certain on this world below
Ladybugs love is a guiding light for us all,
She watches us from above in case we stumble or Fall.
See, when I rememebr Pretty Girl its not saddnes or Tears
Because Ive learned something importnant over the years
What lives on in life is whats inside my heart
And my Pretty Girl's there- so we'll never be apart.
So I thank God in Heaven ever night when I pray
For the wonderful blessings he sends my way.
And the mamories of Ladybug which we'll cherish forever
Until one day in Haven- When we're all togther.
For Ladybug , From Uncle Johnny
With lots of LOVE and memories her!
MY PRETTY GIRL!
(This is a poem Morgans Uncle Johnny had wrote , he is doing time to correct to faults so I wrote it on here for him)
HAPPY THANKSGIVING / Mommie
HAPPY THANKSGIVING
Hey Baby Girl! How are you? We are doing great your Little Brother or Sisiter is learning how to beat me up now :D JUST LIKE YOU DID , isnt that funny! Anyways I hope are eating alot , i tried HAHA but I get full easy! Oh yeh I got put on thyroid meds the other day I think thats why im losing weight now ive lost 18 lbs! Anyways I love you SO MUCH! Im gonna come see you again next week , I love you lots!
I love you Love: MOMMIE!
thank you! / Mommie
hey baby girl .. I want you to know I tried to write you on the 14th but it all got erased and then I went to see you , But i was gonan do it when I got back but i just didnt want to be depressed so i waited I have alot to say to you and I will when i feel the time is right , its not right , not right now. Im really sorry for not being able to do alot here lately but I have to keep myself up .. even though sometimes its eaiser to just cry I keep alot of stuff bottled up and no one knows im hurting , nobody can tell ... I miss you like crazy espcially right now .. and thinken of the new baby makes me scared Im scared it will have to leave me to I think that why im pulling back... and it feels so wrong but alot of ppl dont understand my hurt and pain they dont understand how it felt to have motherhood ripped from them and theres still a chance it will happen again .. its scary ... im praying for the best ! I wanna talk about Nov 14th but I dont want to right now .. I got so much to say, so much that you already know .. but i wanna know that im ready to write it .. I wanna know im redy to cry like that and i wanna know im ready to relive that day again ... when i think of the 14 i go back WAY back i was somewhere noone else could be i was farther then gone i was more lost then a puppy ... at that moment i didnt know who i was . what life was or what it was about .. I knew what i had to do at that was it other than that i might as well had been in space. And as for things getting eaiser .. I dont really think so .. I just relized in 15 yrs on nov 14 im gonna be missing you and crying thats not meaning its eaiser that means you have time behind that date and hopefully you forget , but I will never forget ,noone will ! those days at that hospital broke my heart , you didnt .. now this baby is going to pick up some of those peices and put them back in place but no matter how many babies i have my heart will always will broken in that sort and that will never change but in the fact .. i will nevber be whole or complete ... as I was with you .. however you do make me complete as a mother , you put me to my test and i guess i passed im getting a 2nd chance so thank you Morgan for making loving you so easy .. thank you for being my Angel and My princess , the light of my life , my joy ,my hope ,my dreams , my soul most of all Thank you for loving me and letting me love you Thank you for being my Daughter because Im SO blessed to be your mother!
I love you Love Mommie
1 Year My Love / Diantha Oh my love, it has been a very hard day. I miss you so so much. I have felt you in my arms all day. I have relived this day last year over and over in my mind today. I felt the sweet breeze you sent me this afternoon at 1:28, I knew it was you it was soft and gentle just like you. I never dreamed I could ache so deeply as I do thinking of you, which is every single day. I remember telling you that if you were ready that it was ok to take God's hand that we all understood. Oh my love you don't know how much I wanted to be selfish and just keep you here for a while longer. But I knew you were going to a beautiful place like no other and there would be nothing but sunshine to keep you warm. I always worry about you being cold. God I miss you so much. I want to hold you so bad and kiss your soft little face and look into your deep blue eyes. So many dreams and feelings I wanted to share with you. You are truly the most beautiful precious baby I have ever loved, and I will love you always. They say it will get easier with time but it is never gonna be easy to miss you, to miss holding you, playing with you watching you grow and have a family of your own. You will always be in my heart and on my mind. I wouldn't trade the last 15 hours I spent with you for anything in the world. I bet you got tired of hearing the Barney song, huh? LOL That song is my song I only sing to you, "I LOVE YOU, YOU LOVE ME, WE'RE A HAPPY FAMILY. WITH A GREAT BIG HUG AND A KISS FROM ME TO YOU. WON'T YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME TOO!" I love you my love and I will talk to you later.
Distance never separates two heart that really care / Mary Randall (Aunt)
Distance never separates two hearts that really care for memory spans the miles and in seconds, we are there we hear the voice, we are the smile, and deep inside we know that friends remain a part of us wherever we may go. So we can visit anytime no matter when or where for distance never separates two hearts that really care.
A poem of Emily Matthews
Distance never separates two hearts that really care / Mary Randall (Aunt) Distance never separates two hearts that really care
I miss you babygirl / Mean Mary Randall (Aunt) When you were here, I tried my best to avoid holding you and getting close so that if for some wrong reason you would go I wouldn't hurt so bad. But you made it to my heart even from a distance. So what they say is true that "distance makes the heart grow fonder".
It's been a year now that I held you so close almost all the way from ACH to Springdale. You looked like you were sleeping, just like a babydoll. I held you tight and swore to your mommy and daddy that I wouldn't let anything happen. Remember how you told me to call the state troopers to keep your uncle Timmy from getting in trouble for speeding. And how when he was yelling at that lady that mad him mad, I told him to pull over and I'd walk carrying you from the beginning of I-540, and I would have. I didn't want you hurting ever, even thou I knew you were already somewhere better, and wouldn't have been. I would rather have endured all the pain for you.
You taught me alot about myself, things I didn't even know existed in me, you brought out. You were there giving me the strength, and courage thru that time, and I thank you.
I was taught when I was little not to cry at funerals, because they were going to a better place. I know for sure you were.
And at the funeral I tried to make sure everything went just the way your mommy and daddy wanted because they knew what was best for you, but you did the best part by making the sun shine thru those clouds and making everyone warm, as if you were wrapping your arms around us all and giving us all a great big hug.
I will miss the fact that I didn't spend much time with you while you were here but I hope someday that I can spend more time with you when my time comes.
They say angels walk with us sometimes when we don't even know they're there, but I know when you're with me cause you give me that same warm feeling you gave me when you were here.
I love you very much and miss you even more.
Love always,
Mean Mary
gone, but never forgotten / Sabrina (Aunt) my precious neice, you have been gone for a year now, but you have been with us every day and you always will be. You are our little gaurdian angel. We miss you so, so much. you will never ever be forgotten. You are so special to me, and everyone. Until we see each other again some day, take care of yourself, and watch over your soon to be brother/sister. I love you baby girl. Good night. P.S. I will talk to you again real soon ok.. hugs and kisses..
I think im gonna write in light blue baby girl! Anyways this time last year we was getting ready to take you off life support which was the hardest decsion ive ever made .. but it was for the best .. I didnt want to let you go in any way but I knew if i kept you on those machines I would have been the devil I knew when i was pregnant with you i wouldnt ever do anything to hurt you and if i kept you there on machines I knew i was hurting you and my heart coulndt take seeing my Angel like that I know you understand and I know you thank me for me even though you had to leave us .. but we both know thats what you wanted .. and I would always let you have it your way :D Anyways im trying so hard to be happy but I feel so guilty inside this was my hurting time last year actually I dont think i was hurting that bad to be honest because in my head at this time last year I was SO gone I was off with you somewhere that I was stuck in for a while .. I finally came out of that and reality hit me and thats when i hurt the most I dont remember a whole about being in little rock i rmemebr being by your side here and there Im so sorry i wasnt there .. I shoudl have been the one in the room the WHOLE time but baby i would have went crazy it hurt so bad to see you like that it ws breaking my heart but i left you with the next best thing .. aunite Diantha ... she stayed the whole time... so you always had her there , Everyone misses you So much here ... I think about you alot .. wonder if your brother or sister will look like you , act like you , just be like you in general and I think NO Morgan was special but then I think ,this baby is her brother or sister it might look JUST LIKE HER I really dont care .. I wish it has your hair though im so in love with your hair I remember thats the first thing i noitved when they brought you to me you had a curl LOL i LOVED IT! I miss it alot ..! I miss you ..SO much in a away I wish i still had one more day then i again I dont because I coudl NEVER put you through that again i could never put myself through that again! But mommie cant stay depressed because I need this baby to be OK because if its not I dont think i can handle it again so Im going to try to stop crying and try to be OK i might need your help a littlle and id really like to your here with me hehe! I love you Morgan and I miss you so much baby girl! I love you Goodnight Sweet Dreams Sleep Tight Dont let the bed bugs bite Sleep with the Angels You mean the world to me I love you more than anythgin in the whoel wide world Kisses from ME baby! MUAh!
I love you , love * Mommie*
Oh PS I loved being a mommie ... it made me feel so good it made me feel alive and happy and needed for once .. Its the best feeling in the wolrd and even though im gonan be mommie again your the first to give it to me and I thank you SO much Morgan for letting me have that!
Lots of love and precious memories / Aunt Mary Randall (Aunt) Baby Girl,
There's really no way to really tell you how much you are physically missed, but we all know that you're still with us, watching, and even guiding.
When times are rough you are my inspiration. You were a gift that your mommy and daddy shared, that taught us all alot about ourselves.
I know that you are one of god's chosen angels just from the lessons you taught us all in the short time you were here.
I've always been told sometimes "it's the small things that count", but sweetie you sure showed me in every sense of the word.
Just wanted to say Thank you for touching my heart.
Lots of love and someday hopefully kisses and huggs.
Miss You / Tyler (cousin) I miss you Morgan. How are you doing up there. I bet you have a lot toys to play with, I wish you were here so we could play together. I am happy that I get to start to a new school Monday, I am gonna go to George Elementary. I hope that you are happy and watching us all to make sure we do good. I will talk to you later. I love you. Love your cousin Tyler. Bye Bye for now.
Missing You / Diantha Hello there my love. I sure hope you are warm and cozy today, cause it sure is a bit cold here. Probably not to most people but to you and me it is very cold. I sure am missing you today, I know why but that don't make it no easier. God what I would give to be able to hold you in my arms and touch your silky skin. I love you so much baby girl. I am sure you know that Tyler is staying here with me and uncle Monkey. I think we finally got him through his accident problem so he is doing real good now. He wants to talk to you to so when he get done in the bath tub he will write to you also. I am so excited about these two new babies that we are going to have arrive in May. I am gonna go for now sweetie and I will talk to you in a few days. I love you my love.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN / Mommie (Mother)
~HAPPY HALLOWEEN~
Well baby girl its your 2nd HALLOWEEn ALREADY :O thats just crazy , I wonder what you are this year .. let me guess .. a ANGEL? let me know if im right ok! Anyways baby.. how have you been , mommie is really doing OK now even though the cold and the month is bringing alot of memories back but im doing OK. Guess what .. Mommie goes to the doctor day after tomorrow ( wish me luck) and I alos got my doppler to hear the babies heart with but i dont know if i have found it yet ... if i have its awful low ( 106) So i Hope everything is Ok . just watch over us and wes and cassie too! But I got make up on that hurting my face! HEHE ... I love you Morgan! HAPPY 2nd Halloween!
Goodnight \Sweet Dreams\Sleep tight\ dont let the bed bugs bite\ Sleep with the Angels\ I love you more than anything ont he world\Kisses from everyone!
Happy Halloween / Diantha Hello there my love. I sure am missing you. Happy Halloween baby girl. I was just looking at your pictures from your first halloween, you looked so sweet in your leopard outfit with your little kitty wiskers. I hope you are gonna get a whole bunch of candy today. Just remember dress warm cause it is gonna be wet and cold tonight. I love you my love and miss you like crazy. Wes and Cassie are moving into their own apartment today, I am sad. I will miss them so much. Cassie got some bad news today, her grandpa past away this morning, I am sure you already knew that, he is probably playing with all you little angels right now. Do me a favor and keep her and my precious grandbaby safe and secure. I love you my love and auntie will talk to you again soon. Happy Halloween.
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